Whoo! came back from the CAC camp on sat. It was dam fun. I dont regret missing soccer training and the friendly at all, even if i could have played like against SJII. Even then, i doubt ______ will care.
Anyway, I've been thinking, and I really think I should quit soccer, cos when i go for training, I'm very xian like that, only when play game then I MIGHT smile or be cheerful. And recently, when I've been playing soccer, I feel a bit xian after some time which is weird cos I used to enjoy soccer trainings even though we dint train as much as now and I never got tired of playing soccer. Even though we train much harder than the past, we're having less fun but we're winning more. I guess there's a price to be the best. Anyway, i'm not suited for _____'s playing style. I think I might not even join basketball, maybe not a sport cca like library or something. And i also dun see the point of me wasting my entire holiday going down to train when I won't get to play in the nationals. And i will also be wasting my time in term 3 going for matches and missing lots of sch stuff. I just cant afford that. I accept that Im not as good as the first team and even though I have a chance of being subbed in due to the fact that mark and rohan might not be in the squad and in tae and anan dun really have gd stamina, I've really lost the will to train. I just want soccer to be my passion, not a burden on me. Even though I will not be able to compete nationally, as long as I can play happily with my peers I will be contented.
My results are already crappy and i really dun want to be retained or kicked out of IP. I haven started on my ISO either. So I dun think soccer is the way to go. I probably wont be going for the rest of the holiday training. And when the term starts Im going to change my cca. Good luck to the rest of the soccer team, I wish you luck in the nationals.
PS: I'm sorry that this post is a bit emo, but I will be posting abt the camp in my nxt post so dun worry.=)
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