sorry for delaying post til todae....haven got the chance to use the com much. was reading a book too. yes thats right, i do read. anyway thursday's friendly was fucked up. im jus going to say it. cos it really was fucked up and we got fucked by them. we conceded 2 goals to their cdiv. and it wasnt the keeper's fault. in fact he was doing a very good job. no the keeper wasnt dilshan, it wasnt daryl. it was their reserve keeper. yea we dint even have enough players so we needed to borrow. i pretty much stopped running in the third third. the centre mid is supposed to win balls but me and colin couldnt do a shit against their 1.8m 70 over kg giants. colin even had to be subbed off. terry came in the second third so we had enough for ONE sub. so me and dilshan in centre midfield. i started off well, having a good shot. they called me gerrard for a while but as play went on, that faded away. cos i did. i started cocking up and stuff. if i keep playing like this peter is never gonna let me play. he will let all his favourites play. i dun even need to name names. some people dun come for match claiming they were 'unfit'. so unfit still can play interclass one day before. and not to forget he was unfit because he ponned training starting from like a month before exam. it isnt daryl. unfit then come to start getting fit again lah! and u noe wat is the most fucked up thing? i jus noe, i just freaking noe, if that was me, peter would have fucked me up. but because its _______ hes jus gonna come back for training and become peter's pet all over again. fuck i knew the world was unfair but this is bullshit! zorke spoke a lot of sense that day. whats the point of coming training if u dun go match? it may just be a friendly but we need to expose ourselves to opponents other than ourselves. we jus pernamently damaged the reputation of our school. imagine turning up for a match against quarter finallists of bdiv nationals with 11 players and three without numbers. they had like 40 ppl ready to play and we had 11. somemore all these friendlies are organised by zorke's coaching company so their coach was from the same company. jus how embarrassed zorke must feel. retarded. anyway i really need more training. i simply dint have a chance against those beasts. i dun noe why i cant push against even lighter and weaker opponents. its dam irritating. and i dun noe how to challenge properly. and shield. and get in position to head the ball. its dam irritating how the opponents always seemingly get the ball kicked near their heads and im dam far away. i mean i even lost aerially to their cdiv. and the worse thing is i dun noe how to train all these aspects! i think because we never play full field matches in training but also not coach fault. its the fucking frisbees and touch rugby.anyway i really need to work on that....hopefully holiday training we got whole field can play more match.
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